A while back, a friend of ours in our bible study had us pray for some friends of theirs who had lost their baby about a week before he was due. She had already had 3 miscarriages and then lost this fully grown baby right before he was going to be born. Well, I stumbled across their blog the other day and read just about every post and just sat there teary eyed and amazed at how God is keeping them strong throughout this whole process. Here I am posting a post from their blog from right after it happened. I ask myself, could I write something like this after such a tragedy? Do I really see my life as belonging to God and not myself? Could I be this strong? Praise God for this family and their encouragement to others who are going through far less!! Here’s their blog site if you’re interested in more (you’ll have to go back a bit to read about their loss because most of the recent posts are about the adoption process they are now currently going through):

March 17th,                           

 To our dear friends and family.  There simply are no words to express the deep sorrow in our hearts.  Today our little boy, Titus, lost his heartbeat somewhere between this morning and this afternoon and went to be with Jesus.  This comes as such a shock to us all.  We have shared tears and prayers and joy from the very second he was discovered in Renee’s tummy.  We cannot express enough how grateful we are to have had the chance to be Titus’ mom and dad for these past 9 months, and truly count that as a blessing, and a deep honor.  We stand on the hope of the cross of Jesus, without His love, grace, and faithfulness, and His sovereignty, we have nothing.  These past weeks as we as a body have been in Philippians, I have thought so much about Paul’s words about sharing in the sufferings of Jesus.  We humbly, and obediently walk forward in this.  Our desire is to allow ourselves to feel the full weight of this tragedy, emotionally, physically and spiritually, and yet choose hope, choose rest, and choose to continue to glorify God with our lives and with our family.  Titus belongs to God.  We belong to God.  It is our deep prayer that this circumstance would leave such an echo of the realness and presence of Jesus in this world.  May He receive all glory, every minute of the way.  I pray for everyone we will come into contact with in this process, that the Holy Spirit would make Himself evident and that their lives will be saved for eternity in Christ, that is our only end in this life.

We want you to grieve with us and share our burdens, but be affirmed, Titus needs no grief for himself, he is in a better place, we hold tightly to that. The more despair you have on our behalf, even if well intended, will only make it harder for us.  We have the people we need to walk us through this. We appreciate your words and thoughts, but what we need is your prayers and your silence.  Thank you for honoring that, it is a difficult thing for me to write. 

Allow us room and space, and trust us to communicate our needs and wants as they come. As you can imagine, we are spinning.  Renee goes in tonight for a C-section, we don’t have any details as to what went wrong, and we may not.  We will communicate those to the church leadership as soon as we know.

I do not know what else to say.  We love you.  We know we are loved by you.  Thank you for being our family.  May His kingdom come and His will be done.

Feel free to pass this email along if you feel led to.  The more people that know, the better, and the less we have to explain the situation.

C.J. and Renee’

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Photo Friday #28

jared and I did the Bridal Bazaar last Sunday. It was super fun meeting new people and just seeing so many happy couples. I’m so sorry that the Photo Friday is so “business related” today but so it is….
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Photo Friday #27

I have a very special photo Friday for you today 🙂 The gentleman and I have been working on our house which has included making decisions about art and decorating. While that is fun, sometimes it can be frustrating with how expensive some art is. We saw a piece we liked a while back and really wanted it but really didn’t want to spend that kind of money on it. My mom mentioned that she knew this awesome senior (he just graduated in June) at her school who is super talented. We asked him if he’d be interested in doing a piece for our house and he was all over it! This guy is talented!! He has really blessed us with a beautiful piece of art for our house 🙂 Believe it or not, this is the first actual painting he’s done! He also used some sticks to paint some of it which I think is really cool. I really wish him the best in college and in his life.
Thanks Abraham for this wonderful art you’ve created for us!

Photo Friday #24, 25 & 26 – i’m a bit behind

So almost a month later, here are 3 weeks worth of photo Friday so I’m doubling the pics hah. We’ve been working on house stuff and wedding videos so I think we have a good excuse…plus there are only about 3 people who actually read this blog so I’m not too worried 🙂
First off, the Del Mar Fair – our yearly free wine tasting fun!
The gentleman making fun of the ginormous crap you can win
Next up, Bottle Peak…the highest point in Escondido where you can see all of Escondido. Here we are with the newly engaged Tony and Fei!!
A word of advice…don’t go when it’s boiling hot like we did and don’t go when there is poison oak EVERYWHERE! I don’t know how but none of us got it!
Last, our country’s Independence Day. We took it easy and chilled with the Paulsons and some awesome carne asada and a not so awesome dessert (a new recipe I tried that looked delicious but didn’t taste quite right, I’m still not sure what happened! So no photo/recipe of that!)
Then we headed over to Grape Day Park (I’ve always gone to the SM show) and Ryan picked us a wonderful spot! The entire show was behind those trees. HAHA lovely!