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thoughts for a thursday

i was out with my dog this morning and i smelled it…the first inklings of fall. it was sort of a cotton candy and pumpkin smell, weird i know but i immediately longed for fall the second i caught a whiff, then it was gone. it got me to thinking about time and scared me a little because that meant it was going to be fall…FALL, wait, isn’t it still may??? no seriously, i’m still a little surprised that may is over and it’s the end of august. i know that people say time flies but man this is getting out of control. when you stop to look back and can lump things into years, like ‘wow, it’s been over a decade since high school’ or ‘i’ve been married almost five years’…i don’t want life to pass me by.  i think that’s why i feel so blessed to be able to capture life in photos or video. freeze a moment or moments to be able to relive them to the best of our human abilities.

i don’t really have a bucket list because i don’t want to set up unrealistic expectations for my life, and i just want to experience things as they happen, maybe i’m too easily pleased 🙂 the only ‘bucket list’ goal i ever had was to visit every country in the world…in this moment of thoughtfulness though,  i want to live in the moment, but i also want to be able to go back and remember details that i forgot about when i look back through pictures. i want others to remember joy. i want to remember what the world looked like in 1995 or 2002 or 2012, because it’s constantly changing and we are the historians of this century. i want my stories to be full of truth and by preserving memories i feel like that’s the best way to do it. i want to capture the beauty of God’s creation as best we can as humans. i want to feel emotion, texture, color, temperature and time through memories. i want to do something new, even if everything has already been done. i want to inspire, inspire people to live, to remember and to feel humility in the vast universe where we live. i want to be positive in every aspect of life, even if it hasn’t been perfect, because i have been blessed to be alive for 30 years and don’t want to take a single day for granted.